I woke up really early this morning feeling refreshed and happy, even though I barely reached six hours of sleep. I woke up thankful, at peace, and my mind was not racing like it used to just 28 hours ago. I knew Someone was there with me the whole night I slept, even through the odd dreams and distractions that hit during REM.
I want to say that I feel a little off right now, but that just doesn't seem like the right word for the goodness that it really is. Maybe I can say that I feel like I've just got home from the hospital after a massive brain surgery. I think the Surgeon poked around with my heart too while He was at it. I literally feel my mind ticking in a whole new way. The more I think about it, the more it feels like I'm truly living every moment like tomorrow is not promised. Right now, I feel like I should spend some time to describe how truly wonderful this life I have is and how much time I have wasted worrying and putting things aside. I have been given a new life, new eyes, and a new perspective on everything and everyone. My heart feels like it's been injected with love serum and doused in a thick sheet of gold... I'm not even sure how it's still pumping.
I also feel a little weary or like my guards are up so high that I never want to have a mistake in my life ever again, even though there is no stopping that. It's life. Things like that just HAPPEN with or without our own doing. I also feel like something is prodding at me, and I can't put my finger on what it is.
I just pray that all of this comes clear, that my mind will be fully at peace with everything and that I be exactly where the Lord wants me to be.
